Hey There! Sorry I’ve been MIA. The past couple weeks have been completely crazy! The end of the school year is crazy enough then my car started having problems which became major issues. We also threw Girlie’s birthday party with her friends at a local climbing gym. Whew!
One thing I really loved about the past few weeks was participating in the 14 day Bikini Rebellion Challenge by Neghar Fonooni! If you follow me on Instagram you probably saw all kinds of #bikinirebellion posts. I’m kinda sad it’s over. I learned so much during these two weeks! I really want to share some of the big takeaways with all of you. My goal was to write a big recap post with each day’s lessons etc but I got overwhelmed and started feeling “have to” and I’ve learned that blogging is my hobby and if I start to feel “have to” about a post then I need to rethink it.
The Bikini Rebellion was all about realizing that there are really only 2 things you need to have a bikini body: a bikini and a body. The media has given us this crazy misconception that you need to look like a cover model to have the right to wear a bikini. So not true!!!
One of my favorite memories of HH and my anniversary trip to Mexico (In August, which was even a particularly hot August for Mexico.) was going to Xcaret. It was a ridiculously hot day, I wore shorts and a workout tank. Almost every other woman there was wearing a bikini and sandals. There was saggy, wrinkly, stretch marked, bulgy skin EVERYWHERE and it was BEAUTIFUL.
A big part of taking back the bikini is learning to be kind to yourself in the mirror and not see the scale as a measure of worth. This is where my mantra of “just fake it” comes in. (I have this huge post in my drafts on my just fake it mantra, someday maybe I’ll finish.) I know how I want Girlie to talk to herself, to see herself and value her body. I’ve always known that I need to be the model for that. So, I started faking it years ago and guess what? Fake it til you make it works, and those positive thoughts and behaviors gradually sunk in. I think a lot of us follow the rule of “If you don’t have anything nice to say don’t say anything at all” with others but it’s just as important to treat ourselves this way.
One big takeaway for me was reclaiming some old photos, loving my body and celebrating its’ achievements. This picture is from the Spartan race.
I was so excited to see these pictures, then all I could see in them was my belly fat. Well, I refuse to look at them that way anymore. Now I see how triumphant I felt!
Now, “acceptance is not the same as resignation” and loving my body (including the jiggly donut around my belly button!) does not mean I can’t keep working on change. One of the lessons of the bikini rebellion was that change from a place of love is a heck of a lot more long lasting than change from a place of hate. I can love my body and work to change it (by dialing in the treats and dialing up the cardio) from that love.
I had two big achievements during this challenge. One took place on the last day of school. See, we always go out for ice cream after school on the last day. Our family loves going out for ice cream in the summer! (You gotta celebrate summer up here in NH.) Usually when we go out for ice cream I either A) Order a tiny serving of fat free/sugar free fakeness and feel miserable and deprived or B) Order a giant insane ice cream and feel overfull and guilty afterwards. Well, this time I managed C) Order exactly what I wanted and enjoy it fully neither depriving myself nor going overboard. And when Girlie didn’t finish hers I tried a taste but didnt’ feel the need to scarf it down too.
The other big achievement took place at the end of the challenge. I was doing some cleaning out of my closet and bins and I put pretty much everything that is too small into a donation pile. I came to the conclusion that I don’t necessarily want to be that skinny again. My bi’s and tri’s and lats and quads and glutes aren’t ever going to fit into those pieces and that’s ok. (I did keep a couple things I really like that are a little too snug around the belly. Acceptance isn’t the same as resignation after all.)
You guys know that I don’t usually post pictures of Girlie on here. But I really want to share this one (and it doesn’t show her face). My biggest mindset changes come from her. Both because I want to be the example for her and because sometimes she is the example for me. She is so strong and seems to have no body confidence issues. My job is to keep this big old world from giving them to her and to definitely make sure that they don’t come from me.
PS: I’m linking up with Nicole at Fitful Focus for Fit and Fashionable Friday and Jill at Fitness Health and Happiness for Fitness Friday so make sure to visit the linkups! (Hint, Nicole has an awesome giveaway going on.)